Photoshopped stache?
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Glued on?
Man, using a laptop again is very strange but hopefully I’ll get used to it again LOL
I dont even know what im doing anymore lol
Lol, I love Mikaru’s video comments. Everything he says is so dramatic.
I just got a phone call from the central office to inform me that my therapist “is no longer with us”. This is the one that was recommended by my previous therapist, who had to miss our first meeting because she was sick. I am now not sure if the wording was intentionally euphemistic, or if she just followed in my previous therapist’s footsteps to find greener pastures. The double-entendre didn’t dawn on me until after I hung up, and it’s not too much of a reach to imply that her no longer being with us means she’s no longer with us.
The only thing that kept me even remotely engaged was the recommendation. Now I don’t even have that. She tried to convince me that I’m not starting over, but it increasingly feels like I am. Whatever the reason may be, they’re down at least two staff members and I probably won’t even be scheduled until the beginning of next month. I’ll be put with a very overworked individual who means well but won’t have had enough time to get into the particulars of my case, and will just try to pass me back to another psychiatrist who will push pills and convince me that these ones work for the issue you have trust me and all they do is make me fat. I still don’t even think they’ve got the right diagnosis but I’m not the expert.
Oh well. Another day, another dollar to make.
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Fuck, that’s so rough, I’m sorry. I also think it’s ridiculous that they didn’t think about that wording, seems like such an oversight.
Gingercide is terrifying.
Change of pace listening to LUNA SEA, SUGIZO, and anything related to MORRIE (solo, DEAD END, CREATURE CREATURE) this week.
It’s funny, recently I anonymously shared one thought (not very anonymously - I wasn’t exactly hiding my identity, it was easy to tell if you know me) and a troll started picking on me for my bad wording and accusing me of things I would never mean. I was super pissed off, but the more I tried to clear up what I intended to say (because I know my writing issues) the more they would pick on me. At some point, after many attempts, I realized that was probably not just an “angry stranger” and more likely to be an “ex-friend with a grudge” being a bully …
The irony here is, this (these?) troll(s) called me: homophobic, transphobic, uwu sheltered cishet white babygirl who wants to have her clit licked and her dick sucked (almost funny) who only likes slash ships if it doesn’t ruin her straight ships, bigot, I don’t know what else. I was… confused, to say the least (how can a stranger be wrong in so many ways?? It’s almost like they are purposefully wrong…) . Then it dawned on me who may have said that. If I’m right in my assessment I put up with this girl for maybe 15 yrs and she’d always pick on me due to her queerphobic (omgg arent u into boys omgg u like gay characters) ableistic (omgg haha ur so weirdd thats so crazyy) thoughts (because shes soo cool privileged white tm and doesn’t have to work unlike peasants . . . ) instead of leaving me alone. Not that I knew how to name any of this other than “wow, rude, asshole”. At some point being Woke started being cool and she changed, and eventually one day she decided to leave me alone because I wasn’t Woke Enough according to her worldview, and I have been doing a lot better ever since. gbye bully
For her to reappear like THIS … IDK. I am honestly torn between being angry because I thought we were friends at some point or happy that she proved my point (also girl… u internalized lots of self-hating shit didn’t u?). Anyway God is great, I feel like every “hot shit” girl friend I “lost” along the way made me appreciate my own life more.
On a better note, tests over soon 
yay good I feel DRAINED
Got Playstation Plus back and got the Premium and with it I’ve come to a somber conclusion. Video games may not be for me anymore, which is crazy considering how much I loved them as a kid and even in my 20’s, but now at 32 I literally can’t even force myself to sit down in front of a PlayStation and play a game. It sucks when things you used to love don’t appeal to you anymore and you for lack of a better term grow out of it. Thankfully I still have my Switch lite and it’s a lot more accessible and easier to just sit wherever and play, but still finding games I’m interested in on there is a chore. C’est la vie.
Same here. I think part of it is aging out of games, and another part is how games have turned from a way to spend time and get some enjoyment to a slot machine that highly suggests you spend money to have a good time. I went back to Pokemon Crystal on an emulator and it’s embarrassing just how much more content there is in a GBC game from 2000 than there is in your average AAA game in 2022.
No cap, there might be more “game” in Crystal than BF 2042 and Halo Infinite combined…
I’m still a bit baffled by the email I received from CDJapan; according to it, it’ll take 3-4 weeks for the supplier to obtain a copy of the Folio album “Leads to Everywhere” to complete my order. I placed the order on June 1st so I could get the other item by its release date: Dir en grey’s “PHALARIS”.
Like, I was aware the Folio album was on backorder but the search could have begun shortly after placing my order.
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My assumption is that CDJ just guessed on how long it would take and once they actually got in contact with the supplier they were informed that it’s going to take way longer.
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Good album. 
folio rules
The other day I watched the Capcom Showcase and they announced that it’s the tenth anniversary next week for Dragon’s Dogma and they’re going to have a celebration so I said “Well hell, let’s give it a shot.”. It’s on sale 66% off on Switch so I bought it for like $10.27 after tax, wish me luck.
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covid again
Damn, that sucks. What do you feel like changed for you? I’m kind of the opposite where I felt that way since graduating college. But since like 2 years ago I got back into it. I mostly play retro games though, although I’ve used services like PS Plus/Now to play games I’ve missed out on from the last console generation.
More options and easier ways to spend time that feel equally as enjoyable if not more. When I was a kid like most everyone you wanted to play all of the time and you played the same stuff usually, but when you got older and had more money you most likely didn’t end up playing as much as an adult as you thought you would. I listen to a lot of podcasts and watch npb which is six games a day which can take all day and night when you factor in breaks, having to do stuff and whether or not the game is a blowout early and whether or not skipping commercials.
I dropped off of PlayStation hard once the Switch came out and I haven’t been interested in any of Sony’s AAA titles in a long time since the original Horizon, and I barely played that at all.
The games I’ve bought since then have been
Yakuza 0 (didn’t play much), BotW (played most of it),
The Silver Case limited edition (Never opened it.),
Mario Kart 8 (probably played it a month),
Friday the 13th (watched streams of it more than played it.)
Tekken 7 (Played the story then got more into watching competitive than playing it.)
Gundam Versus (Played the story, never touched online)
Super Mario Odyssey (played the first three worlds)
Ultra Moon (nearly beat it)
Soul Calibur VI (the SO and I play it once in a blue moon)
Red Dead Redemption 2 (nearly beaten)
Yu-Gi-Oh! Legacy of the Duelist: Link Evolution (Beat it, at least I think.)
Professional Baseball Spirits 2020 (done several seasons, pretty much one as each of the twelve teams)
Animal Crossing (Whatever the latest is)
SD Gundam G Generation Cross Rays (Played about half of it.)
All told that’s not a lot of games over the course of five and a half years.
That’s understandable. You bring up a good point that as kids we had a lot more free time to sink into video games. I admit, I can’t sit and play games for hours as often as I used to. I end up wanting to change tasks.
If we’re talking new games, I get not having interest. The landscape is so different than it used to be and the way games are developed, sold and consumed are also a different experience. I think that’s why for me I’ve gained a more strong interest in retro gaming throughout the years, even if I do like to follow the latest news and games. I like when games were designed to be completed and not cycled endlessly with “new” content.
I think this comic sums up your feeling on the topic:
https://www.instagram.com/p/CbNo8jlLTlh/
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