Went to visit my friend who is religious, had a pleasant chat and then got into a whole ass argument with him on the car ride home because he felt like expressing his religious homophobic thoughts to me ( a bisexual woman ) that I had no idea of previously. Tried to play it off and say he ‘‘didn’t mean to offend me and does not think i’m disgusting’’ after going off about how it’s sinful to do ‘‘homosexual acts’’. lol bye fuck this dude, I had no idea he was like this. And then he expected a hug when I was leaving the car. Excuse me???
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Man he really went in ass first, I can only think that he was either excited or doesn’t care about you enough to lose you by starting this topic, don’t mind me I had been bombarded with these too but only told the few people who actually listen, from my experience Islam doesn’t shun girl/girl affection like in eastern countries girl siblings or sisters washing each other or kissing or in harems, it’s just an innocent way of showing love but you don’t have those kinds of thoughts back then you do now, maybe an era long past, the reason women are held at a high regard is only a girl could ever complete a man, and in this case polygamy isn’t frowned because the second I finish this sentence even if everyone in the world married each other there still would be hundreds of millions of single girls who’ve never had been with anyone more than one night, and we can all agree that these are all mutual acts nothing more.
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Honestly idk why the fuck he thought I wanted to hear his thoughts on the matter. He’s a bit socially clumsy but that just crossed the line, he KNOWS I’m bisexual so why on Earth was he so confident telling me those type of thoughts? It’s not like he even grew up in a religious household or that he is an old fart with old fashioned ideas or anything like that, these are all his own thoughts. Then he proceeded to apologize a million times and say that he has no problem with what I am and blah blah bullshit. He switched real fast when he saw me actually get pissed and in the end I ended up crying because I was so hurt from it and haven’t experienced that type of discrimination since school days. Just yuck.
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I’m surprised you visited him, if I had a friend like that I wouldn’t let go no matter what. Embracing what you are is freeing, as long as you know right from wrong I wouldn’t want anyone to change. I had something similar happen but that’s a story for another day.
I would not have visited him if I knew he was like that. It’s definitely awkward between us now and I’m not sure what’s gonna happen next. He was very apologetic but honestly I don’t know how the hell I can ever let that shit go. And it’s sad because we do have a friendship but it feels kinda nasty to be friends with someone who is deep down judging you for who you are. I just wish he would have shut the fuck up in the first place. I don’t wanna hear it.
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I just wanted to know the status of some members from zombie and bam, this dude’s been arrested lol
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Just venting: pathetic that I have been on a leave from work for like, 8 months because my body is apparently … anemic basically. It’s not a Very Rare Disease - it’s just that I probably have a malabsorption condition like celiac or Addison’s anemia and so despite eating normally(ish) I 've been consistently getting more and more anemic … For a while. Like 5 years at least.
And now I shake and have all kinds of random neuropathic pains and neurologists have been extremely USELESS so one day while doing my own “gotta save myself (tired of feeling muscles and nerves pull and twitch and headaches 
)” brand of pubmed research I realized that not only mine but also most of my relatives’ symptoms could be Addison’s anemia and we have been struggling with it for generations … and no one seems to give a flying fuck as long as we are willing to spend lots of money in meds and procedures … had to ask the shrink so I could get a blood test once I started suspecting it, results came out suspicious and now I am just waiting for confirmation. And it’s … sigh. Why don’t they test vitamin levels more often … Gross.
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Need more deets.
same
Tried all the things and couldn’t get to work, but I switched to Opera and that works! So whew! Thanks
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Good to know that you found the solution. Sorry that I can’t change anything to be backward compatible with older hardware because Let’s Encrypt is our only option for free SSL certs.
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All good! Not your fault at all, I’m the boomer
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Last.fm in general has become a shitposting site. VK profiles aren’t even as bad as some Metal and pop ones where almost half of the shouts are from edgy far tight trolls. (cough Opeth cough)
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That’s sad… I remember times, when LAREINE’s shoutbox was a portal straight to the main profile picture battles and yes, wonderful world of tight trolls… aah.
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Just when I was getting ready for my “pain is over party” somehow the new dentist (on purpose, or not?) ruined my nerves and the next appointment is in 8 days so I am like, yaay day 1 out of 9 (best case scenario ; worst case scenario: until I die?) of trigeminal neuralgia-like pain is over!
“go to the dentist” they said, “it’s expensive but at least you’ll be able to eat red meat again” they said, sigh. Refuse to believe how shitty this world can be
my iphone 6 has been "in transit to next facility " for 4 days now. The damn thing is coming from a town 200 miles away, so there’s no known bad weather between here and there. WHERES MY PHONE USPS?! I wanna buy some clear cases to decorate.
I would like to be a streamer or YouTuber really I’ve often humoured the thought of it long ago especially since all my ventures I think it would make for good vlogs. I wasn’t sure how I would be received though actually I remember a friend named Alex who I referred to this site after a late night game of griefieng my entire team to the point I was banned when the entire server voted me off and the Devs too. He would play whenever I was on and that would be late at night. He just said in general I was a really fun person and had a lot of interesting things to say even though I think the only true thing he said was I’m crazy and I’ve asked him seriously many times over and would often mock me as “gayyyy” of course it was just teasing… I think but the different thing is I would talk there even if everyone hated to hear me. I like this place because people are mature enough to block me and not bitch and whine about it but I always thought they enjoyed my company and well hard to believe I’m told I’m a funny guy although serious at times I known because of some good natured laughs, although the community was long past there were one or two who made it worth it. I would sing in Japanese or English and I think they’re just mocking me when they say my voice Isint bad, or maybe they liked me because I just did it my way, it was really fun I won’t lie. Getting my entire team killed by squishing them in props or blocking the other side of the door while zombies slaughter my teammates is very fun shortly after getting votekicked. Listen I’m not gay but when a man sends me a pic of gay pr0n and calls me a femboy I send him a pic that if I was gay this who I would pick and got called weirdo and would often be asked if I was Asian. Ahahaha one of them even said Russian, that’s weird even in their standards. Whatever so Alex, I’m guessing he is British, a “sod” a “lenny” because didn’t take long to spill out our stories and I don’t mean to scare because it checks out, and when I told him my side of it he just called me " love (my name in game) you’re crazy. Nice story make more up" ifc a joke because we got into another convo where I would write an entire essay of either history or religion which are basically the same and got me thinking I would love to be a voice for the online community because I never really cared for it but I should be open to new ideas, I would love to blog about countries I visited, people I met but the thing is there is one major problem. Ofc my identity when I show my face. Fuck my name and country, my weird words combined with my unhinged attitude is unforgettable even after a decade later if people recognise me and go " **** you really haven’t changed a bit" makes me uneasy. Especially how crazy everything is with people nowadays. Of course I would really like to have a fan base I don’t mean it in a egotistical way, everyone who watches anyone really just watches it for the drama or well nevermind. if I could just show those people, the handful of people. What they are missing out outside, there is hope and they could do more than I will ever accomplish alone. I never really read comments I would just say the same things over again but would like to read if it was once sincere. Ofc as I said the tradeoff is that I have to give up on my identity believe me some already tried I won’t give into detail but more than that the most important defence is as much as it is extremely hard to believe I don’t really talk irl. Rarely. Yeah could’ve fooled me. And if I was actually seen in real time posting vlogs, I would already give my first expression everything would be tremendously harder for me especially since first expressions are really important though most don’t believe it. Oh and I guess about Alex and the community well, visited a year ago because I was lovesick or homesick but it didnt end well, I know I say the same things, I realise it later of the thousands of events I face there are but handful of good things that forever change my view it gives me hope and that is more than enough. I don’t want to lie, I came here to learn but when I had the chance I let go, I don’t know why I join the crowd and make fun of others compassion. It’s obvious that people like that are younger when they defend what they like when everyone’s tearing them up like hyenas. You could tell its not dillusion but rather the person in front of you is younger but still heartbroken never to return, being rejected when you show something you love. I wonder did he ever looked back once? Yeah I’m talking about kryr I too learned like this and was like him but the people I was with were both harsh and kind. And it was only when I came back I knew what they said and truly meant it was only when I came back and I can’t stop thinking about it, I had a chance to do what’s right like many others. Why is it only after somethings gone we learn the true value of it? I would want to talk with Alex again or kryr for that matter. I wonder if there is anything he believed in me.
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Watched love[CLIP]per front to back. Feeling so spiritual rn
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