Wish I was in therapy to say “actually I don’t like people my age generally, hate the world they’re constructing, seems like everything is fine as long as they’re getting pussy/dick, morals gone” but last time I told a psychiatrist this he said “well, I have more patients like this. if you could afford to not go outside forever it’d be fine” and we were like “well” “well” “ok”
paid the consultation, nothing changes but whenever I act unhinged I still get “go to therapy” (this sounded really emo but the complaint really was about “go to therapy” well? you go to hell instead.)
reminds me of a time a good friend of mine who used betterhelp during covid lockdown one (1) time and was seriously asked ‘have you tried being more positive?’
… turns out that does not work yay!
also i too do not like people my own age and have embraced my inevitable hermitdom
betterhelp/suicide hotlines are THE WORST … honestly I am 100% convinced they only exist to make MORE people kill themselves. best part abt having been a licensed therapist is being able to say, with conviction, that this whole “go to therapy” thing as a default answer to when others are feeling unwell (a dignified ‘shut up’ ) is just a psychophobic marketing scheme to both shame the unprivileged and sell useless practices like a pyramid scheme. (not that therapy is useless in itself, though the training is very … debatable and have you SEEN the therapists we have today? or just professionals in general doctors etc )
realest. and embracing it was actually the best thing, too bad sometimes I am invariably hit with the “ok maybe I need to relearn how to be Social so I can get a new job” (because I hate the pressure to not be unhinged at all times as a therapist like bro unfortunately sometimes barking is the only way)
After i took a smoke break at work some guy came up fast talking me about jesus christ and if I believe. It seemed so rehearsed, I’ve never seen someone talk until all of the breath leaves their chest. Simultaneously asking if he could pray for me, and if i wanted to burn in hell because “when you cross the street and get hit by a car, you die. So it’d make sense to accept him now. You only die once man and after that, its all over.” Think im good on that church invite.
“I was hooked on drugs, drinking, pills, formication, girls, pornography and three years ago today bro, Jesus saved me.”
holy shit that’s amazing. Reminds me of that one time Alice Nine’s Tora got admitted for a heart attack and a doctor was telling him that they were in a vkei band before too…
Anyways thank you for the good work, and Gotcharocka is cool - I hope if anything happens to me someone on the medical team is like you
Thought the “X Banned” thing would not get to me and then it got to me
Like, where am I supposed to vent that I feel stalked all day bc I blocked a dumbass from neopets on tumblr. Or just share useless 280 chars long reviews on bl manga. Rants about my living conditions or lack thereof. I thought nothing would change if I shouted into the plurk void but the plurk void doesn’t put the good stuff on my timeline so it’s been useless. Sigh. My timing is truly lovely, like, working in a slum when there’s a pandemic going on then jobless while my country quickly turns into North Kr? Wow.
saw someone post about these hilarious straw doll-shaped cookie cutters on twitter and apparently theyre from the 100yen shop Seria. I have one near me, so I went out to look for them and nope, the one near me doesn’t have any Sucks bc i thought they’d be perfect for halloween
Great, I really wanted to eat dad’s cookies goody rings (thought they were called daddy-os) when I move back to Canada this year, strangely I had a fear they might be discontinued. Turns out they have been so sad, guess the main chocolate treat I have to look forward to is coffee crisp.
Edit: or I guess they’re in a non-production state, so maybe they’ll be back some day…
Working culture in this country is killing me.
I was unable to work today so I went to the hospital instead. Early 30s, ruined mental health and xanax debute, haha…
me whenever I remember the amt of money I spent on my second degree and felt impostor syndrome from day 1 to the last day and did nothing with it so far lol
i never used my degree either lol, people are always impressed when i whip it out during interviews but nobody can ever know that i learned absolutely nothing during the 4 years
honestly I took my first degree p seriously so I used that despite my lack of talent but the 2nd one I was just struggling with migraines and stupid bosses at work and couldn’t concentrate on studying as much as I wanted / tried to … think I learned some stuff just didn’t retain like 95% of it sob if I knew twas gonna be like that I’d have saved money traveled to Japan dk
saw some tiering kid on proseka with the nickname ‘SuzaLulu brainrot’ in 2024 … thanks Miyavi for making Code Geass relevant again
if you’re currently in school, please don’t be discouraged. it is normal to not use what you learned once you leave. use your time trying to find internships or apprenticeships to get your leg in to a company if you aren’t going the self employed route. a lot of things can be taught once you’re at the job!
turns out that does not work yay!
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so sad, guess the main chocolate treat I have to look forward to is coffee crisp.