Sugar’s Yukichi used to Naruto run in elementary school lmfao
So adorable
https://x.com/sugar_yukichi/status/1862057343699255675
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Naruto in elementary school thanks for reminding me I am old
Legit tearing up (hoping its PMDD) thinking about how I politely but desperately asked a therapist from my insurance for therapy (insurance is 1700/mo it’s NOT free!!!) and they said I would have to
- wait for the neurologist’s appointment (on the 15th, 1 month wait)
- neurologist would refer me to a neuropsychological REevaluation (the one I paid 1000 for wasn’t enough apparently probably not enough because the insurance needs to treat me as disabled bc being autistic would change Everything just like that) to make sure I am autistic (and nevermind the fact that 0 out of 7 neurologists I had appointments with refered me to a neuropsych evaluation lol I only got that because I begged to the shrink who was seeing me for 600/mo to give me a fucking referral. none of it was via insurance either. 1 neurologist from my insurance refered me to an MRI and when a fucking AVM came up they said I had to see the neurosurgeon - nevermind the fact that a lot of people don’t surgically remove their AVMs and just live with them but no one in Brazil knows the ARUBA protocol apparently - and refused to take care of me any longer until I threatened to sue then they did what? oh yes they referred me to the insurance’s therapists lmaooooo in short: no the neurologist PROBABLY WON’T refer me to a neuropsych for a “free” reevaluation they will most likely IGNORE MY PLEA instead, like they did 7 times prior)
- let’s say the neurologist does what the therapist expects (they won’t) I would wait however long for a neuropsychological evaluation, probably a year or so
- and then I would be able to start therapy with a qualified therapist who is prepared to deal with autistic patients EXCEPT the insurance has none of that so yeah maybe I would have to judicialize my issue anyway so they would cover my therapy with a third party
- therapist also asked if local autism NPOs have therapists at their disposal, like dude u’re in the biggest city in this continent and u’re telling me they don’t where u are bc they only have child therapists. whatever makes u think they might in my province … haha oh yeah you don’t think that at all.
So basically the reason why I want to go to therapy is you know so I can vent about how pathetic this shit is. And the reason why I don’t particularly care anyways is that as someone who has a license to be a therapist and is (sadly because no one takes anything seriously) more qualified than most of them I know what they will say (best they can do is validate my pain but most are just bad at their job and will try to circumvent the issue) and it’s pathetic anyways. Society’s attempt at killing off autistic people by doing shit like this (refusing care they or their families pay for and singling them out like contaminated vermins) would be interesting if it wasn’t for the fact that the serious workers and the handful of us are, like, the SAME few. All you’re doing is killing off those who didn’t make it (yet) so it’s not just ableist it’s classist above all else.
My way of coping with life is of course by being a clown <3 and of course that also annoys them bc like WHY arent you slaving off anymore after years of working harder for less reward (‘my slave’ implied) or at least being a sociopath (‘thus enabling me to do so as I am useless’ implied)
The fact that ~ 99% of the human race seems to be incapable of being decent tortures my soul. I used to assume they’re just ignorant and smile more before getting diagnosed. Becoming aware of how they’re just evil did NOT help, though it may be better than wanting to die and not knowing why at least - people usually get through their issues with a combination of inconformity + action. I’ve got the inconformity to spare but too much executive dysfunction ↔ lack of confidence to get to the action part it seems. As they say God gave me the mental illness bc otherwise Id be unstoppable 
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me when newjeans, loossemble, and fromis_9 is rip and poepoepoe-tuber graduates at the end of Jan.
At least GFriend is coming back.
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…this is how i found out all of these things what a morning
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Same, even if I make Shin Ramyun with milk, it’s too spicy for me 
but they’re all so tasty
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rewatching the purple line mv after like 15 years made me think wow this was so good remember when sme invented the concept of bisexual lighting
laughed a lot. good thing at least I appreciate my sense of humor !!!
and wait is gfriend coming back FINALLY
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Buldak tastes bitter to me… haven’t eaten Shin ramyun in years but i remember it being good… thinking of Buldak makes my stomach turn
i just got into newjeans last night and then i heard that they just left their company so idk when new music will ever come out lol
the jrock to kpop back to jrock pipeline needs to be studied. if you avoided it, how???
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I’ve never been into kpop in my life and i’ve been a vkei fan for 15 years 
i’ve never even been into to non-vk jrock or pop lol.
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How about VK to Western alt back to VK?
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I never managed to properly get into kpop. I dabbled in early 2010s but the extremely produced commercial vibe never appealed to me the same way as vkei. While I liked some the music back then, it just didn’t quite feel “real” to me same way as my vkei favourites. When I listen to my favourite artists I like knowing they are not just performing something a huge abusive company determined to be commercially viable but that they created it and it means something.
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I was here the whole time.
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yep! lol
i’m the same way and when i saw so many other people like this i was 
life works in mysterious ways
That’s what I would have said (maybe less politely and with more of an “it’s shit” energy to it bc I was tired of people ditching jmusic for ew kpop lol) until 2014! Then I found one kpop group I liked (to put it plainly, said group ditched the company) and the rest is history. I still hate the industry but some idols I like? Hate the game not the player or something - some staff and idols are actual creatives with interesting visions but they chose the comercially viable path and I can’t say I blame them for choosing it …
but then again I am the kind of rock fan who would choose pop over metal any day so it’s just my preferences ¯_(ツ)_/¯ no wrong or right aboutit. I did try a lot to get specifically into kpop lol. Took a while but then I got REALLY into it. It’s funnier when I realize my non-girlgroup kpop faves were 1) poprock band 2) two groups who collabed with jrock artists though 
in my fandoms the emo-to-kpop pipeline was also strong. I thinkkkkk … it’s all kinda obvious since it’s all pop for the weirdos
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delete this
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